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花言葉

2010-01-01T20:22:31Z

花言葉。

Just random meanings of some flowers.
Just a post for my own reference.

１st up is my birth flower. Then some other random flowers. (:

11月17日の誕生花: エレムルス (Eremurus Bieb;Desert Candle)
花言葉: 逆境

スターチス (Limonium sinuatum)
花言葉: かわらぬ心

ベゴニア（赤）(Red Begonia)
花言葉: 片思い; 公平

ガーベラ (Gerbera)
花言葉: 神秘

ワスレナグサ (Myosotis; Forget-me-not)
花言葉: 私を忘れないで; 真実の愛

チューリップ (Tulip)
花言葉: 博愛; 永遠の愛情; 愛の告白

カスミソウ (Gypsophila; Baby's breath)
花言葉: 愛らしい; 清い心; 切なる願い; 無邪気

2010 resolutions!

2010-01-01T11:53:44Z

First post in 2010!

Would like to wish everyone a happy new year!
あけましておめでとう! (:

I must say that I have learnt alot in 2009.
And now, as usual, it's time to review my resolutions for 2009.

~~1. Study Hard~~

Definitely done. I've studied like I've never ever studied before.
I've studied so hard that people in school thinks that I'm a mugger.
This is a breakthrough you know..lol

~~2. Start learning Japanese~~

Hell yea...me and val finally got our ass down to Bunka and registered for the Japanese class...More Japanese classes awaiting in the future..lol

~~3. Keep in contact with old friends~~

Kinda done..had meetups with 0405 and dyb peeps...:D and of course my secondary school friends...wow..I should have even more meetups though...

~~4. Go to Japan (?)~~

Oh well...this ws not fulfilled...but since I went to Hong Kong and Bangkok instead, I guess it can be a replacement? haha! :D More trips in 2010 hopefully!

5. Catch my first ever concert

Sadly not fulfilled. The rumor of Arashi coming to Singapore/Malaysia was obviously not true. And since I want to keep my virgin concert for a Japanese artiste/band...I guess I'll have to wait...

~~6. DYB Zoo Trip~~

FINALLY FINALLY FULFILLED.
It was great. And lots of people turned up.
But of course, there are always people who can't make it (or perhaps they just didn't want to be there)

NOW!
My resolutions for this year:

1. Study hard

This will continue to be a must-have in my resolution till the day I graduate. There were a few times I got so overwhelmed by what's happening around in school that I've forgotten my dreams/goals. It made me feel lost. But thank goodness my dreams/goals are always here with me. It will always motivate me. And I will never stop trying.

2. Apply to go to UB

I really want to make this true. I don't want to be just talking about this but not doing anything to fulfill it. This is why I really must work hard for the upcoming semester and then apply to go to UB.

3. Continue learning Japanese

DUH! :D

4. More overseas trips!

I want to travel around the world more. :D
It's nice to be traveling with my sis. And not to mention no parents..hehehehehe :D:D

5. 10th year anniversary with secondary school best friend (:

Yes! I'm going to celebrate the 10th year anniversary with my secondary school best friend! It's nice to know that I still have someone supporting me and listening to my rants when I needed it most. (:

This are the resolutions I have for this year. And I need to continue reminding myself to move on in life. And never look back.

I can already foresee a year filled with activities, new memories and of course, more fan-girling to keep me happy (:

"Scars left behind will become part of a memory.
And these memories are going to push me closer to my dreams!"

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2009-11-11T08:19:28Z

HAPPY 22nd TO DEAREST TEGOSHI! XD

here's a banner to go with this birthday wish.

お誕生日おめでとう！！！

Happy birthday to ZORO (lol), CPY and Chio Hui too!
11.11 is such a nice date!

お誕生日おめでとう!

2009-11-03T11:45:21Z

亮ちゃん!!!
お誕生日おめでとう～～～！！

HAPPY 25TH BIRTHDAY ...
...
...
TO OUR DEAREST RYO :D :D

here's a birthday banner! XD

キラキラSUMMER

2009-09-15T17:18:35Z

My mum and sis went to Malaysia last Saturday so I had the whole master bedroom to myself. HOHOHO~

It was like a sleepover but I was the only one? hahaha!
It was nice though...music, face masks (LOL), and I was doing my nails...
And this is what I came up with.

Presenting to you...

キラキラSUMMER! (Kira-kira SUMMER)

Hahaha..I name it キラキラSUMMER because it glitters under the sunlight! WOOT!

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::RANDOMNESS::

I can't wait for Thursday to come now.
Crows Zero 2 is opening this week. YAY-NESS!
OGURI SHUN & MIURA HARUMA!

Just watching the trailer makes me want to scream!!!
Have been waiting for this for SOOOOOOOO LONG...
Now if only they bring in GOKUSEN movie and ROOKIES movie too~~~ :3
JAPANESE MOVIES ARE THE LOVE!
BRING IN MORE TO SINGAPORE! XD

Random-ness

2009-09-08T09:13:38Z

I officially declare this my favorite design among the 3 designs I had tried so far.

And now....JPOP AZ XD
I really love this song because I like the lyrics.

About how a guy wants to say "I love you".
But it all turns into a code that looks/sounds like 『☆#%◎Ｘ…』. :D

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C: Code by Nishikido Ryo (Code - 錦戸亮)

今僕より一つ二つ先を進んでた君の証拠が
浮彫りになってく沈黙破ってくれるから
違う誰かの話でゲラゲラ盛り上がってるフリしてる
でもその笑顔まだ見てタイから言葉呑み込む

『☆#%◎Ｘ…』

今以上を欲しがる僕は世間知らずなガキですか？
求めるよりも与えろと諭すのですか？
永遠なんて無いよと牽制してもいい
でも僕はね光ってみたい共に例え一瞬だけでも

『☆#%◎Ｘ…』

君を彩る全ての要素を僕が守ってみせよう
何があっても傍にいよう
君が悲しむ全ての要素は僕が奪うから
もう少しだけ愛を愛を愛を

溢れ出す言葉思いきって言った「アイシテル…」の筈が
脳からの指令を又無意識に僕だけの暗号に変えて

『☆#%◎Ｘ…』

君に胸張ってこの想い届けられる日は来るかな？
誰かに誇れる僕でいられるかな？
君がいるのなら何だって叶えられるそんな気がするから
届けるね愛を愛を

君を彩る全ての要素を僕が守ってみせよう
何があっても傍にいよう
君が悲しむ全ての要素は僕が奪うから
ありったけの愛を愛を愛を

『☆#%◎Ｘ…』

Translation:

The proof of you advancing
one or two steps further than me
Has been etched like an embossed carving
which has broken the silence
I see you laughing loudly at someone else's jokes
as if you're enjoying yourself,
but it's all an act
But because I want to see your smile,
I swallow my words down

「☆＃％◎※...」

For me who wants more than what I have now
Am I like a kid
who knows nothing about the world?
Am I being admonished for waiting
for something to be given to me
rather than pursuing it for myself?
It's fine even if there's a constraint
such as "there is no such thing as 'eternity'"
I'd still want the both of us to shine
Even if it's only for an instant

「☆＃％◎※...」

I'll show you that I can protect
all the elements that make you you
No matter what happens, I'll be by your side
I'll snatch all the elements
of your sadness away
So believe a little bit more in love
In love, in love

The overflowing words that I boldly said
Should have been "I love you"
But once again the instructions
from my brain unconsciously
Turned it into a code
that is mine and mine alone

「☆＃％◎※...」

If I wear my feelings upon my sleeve
Will there be a day when
these feelings will reach you?
Will I be someone that you can boast
about to someone else?
Because you're here
It feels as though anything can come true
So my love will reach you won't it?
My love will...

I'll show you that I can protect
all the elements that make you you
No matter what happens, I'll be by your side
I'll snatch all the elements
of your sadness away
With all the love [that I have]
All the love I have

「☆＃％◎※...」

Credits to: Jpopasia.com & sweet-rain.net

"でもその笑顔まだ見てタイから言葉呑み込む"
"But because I want to see your smile, I swallow my words down"

A Special Summer....

2009-09-01T16:49:53Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATO KEISUKE!

Thanks for making this year's summer special. (:

Simple birthday banner.

A sketch I did of KK. This is the best I could do. >.<

Things I do when I'm bored...

2009-08-26T10:53:18Z

Just some of the things I do when I'm bored.
It's back to school soon ):
And then I won't have time to do things like this....

1.) Polyvore.com. Pretty fun to make a scrape-book-like-picture.

This is inspired by Ayumi Hamasaki.

And this is inspired by Audrey Hepburn.

2.) Nail art. Still not too good at it. :P

My nails before I went to HK.

And my nails now...
blah...

WOO!

2009-08-09T15:32:02Z

Wow.
I'm excited and a lil nervous at the same time.
Be leaving in the morning.
4 hrs of slp! woo!

Just hope that this is going to be a safe and enjoyable trip! :D

blahs again.

2009-07-24T19:42:37Z

Argh.
This month is soooo not my month.

hate that stupid feeling.
maybe I don't like losing too.

blahs

2009-07-20T17:43:56Z

BLAH!

I'm supposed to be doing my ESL research paper now but I'm just not in the mood! *GASP*

It's been days since i watched my last JDRAMA omg...
My finger is so tempted to click on that "dramas" folder..oh nosss!!!

And this is such a wrong time to be fangirling over harry potter, BSB and tons of other japanese artistes too.. *faints*

Hopefully after the draft is done I will have more free time...
But I doubt so since finals will be in like 2 weeks after. OMG

I'm so used to slacking.

Because it's worth it...

2009-07-12T07:18:35Z

Because I love this song so much that I think it deserves a post :D

Another japanese song that starts with B that is not so angsty and motivates me to do what I'm supposed to do. :):):)

I'm so going to achieve my dreams. Just wait and see. :D

B: Bokurashiku by Tegomass (僕らしく - テゴマス)

庭の隙間に　落ちたった根
光を浴びて　芽を出した
空に向かって　まっすぐに
疑うこともせず

あぁ　僕なんて　
悩んでうつむいている
分からない　歩けない
そんな時こそ

さあ　顔を上げて僕らしく
負けそうな夜だって
光を胸に
さあ　顔を上げて　僕らしく
何度でも立ち上がる　
強さを胸に
未来へ

風に吹かれ　倒れても
根を張り起き上がる

あぁ　僕なんて
つまずいてくじけている
分からない　歩けない
そんな時こそ

さあ　顔を上げて僕らしく
負けそうな夜だって
光を胸に
さあ　顔を上げて　僕らしく
何度でも立ち上がる　
強さを胸に
未来へ

両手広げて　まだ見ぬ世界に夢を馳せるのさ

さあ　顔を上げよ　僕らしく
何度でも立ち上がる　
強さを胸に
明日も

さあ　僕らしく

Translation:

In an opening in a garden, a seed fell
As light poured upon it, it began to bud
It gradually grew towards the sky
Despite its hesitation

Ah, And yet
I look down when I'm unsure
I'm confused, I can't walk on
Even during those times

I raise my head and be myself
Even at night when I'm defeated
There's a light in my heart
I raise my head and be myself
With a strength in my heart
that helps me stand again and again
and move on towards the future

Even if the wind beats upon it
Its roots spread out and it continues to grow

Ah, and yet
I always stumble and fail
I'm confused, I can't walk on
Even during those times

I raise my head and be myself
Even at night when I'm defeated
There's a light in my heart
I raise my head and be myself
With a strength in my heart
that helps me stand again and again
and move on towards the future

I spread out both my hands and a dream runs on of a world yet unseen

I raise my head and be myself
With a strength in my heart
that helps me stand again and again
Tomorrow, again

I'll be myself

Credits to: Jpopasia.com

"両手広げて　まだ見ぬ世界に夢を馳せるのさ"
"I spread out both my hands and a dream runs on of a world yet unseen"

SAY SHIGE!

2009-07-11T06:35:37Z

And yet..another happy birthday post for a NEWS member...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIGE!
Another one of those simple (in other words lazy) birthday banner.

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JPOP AZ - A corner with recommendation of Japanese songs starting with A all the way to Z.

B: Because of you by Ayumi Hamasaki ( Because of you - 浜崎あゆみ)

"どうして時々こんなに苦しい
どうしていつでもこんなに愛しい
君じゃなきゃだめで
君じゃなきゃだめで"

Translation:

"Why sometimes my heart aches so much
Why always my heart goes out to you?
I can't think of anyone but you
I can't think of anyone but you"

For detailed lyrics and translation, please visit: http://www.jpopasia.com/lyrics/1956/ayumi-hamasaki/because-of-you.html

YAY to angsty song and lyrics! :P

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MASSU!

2009-07-04T07:28:27Z

Today..is...MASSU'S BIRTHDAY

A simple banner that I made (because I'm lazy so it's simple), which turns out looking quite ok! :D

yay for simplicity!!! XD

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JPOP AZ - A corner with recommendation of Japanese songs starting with A all the way to Z.

A: Aitai by Yuzu ( 逢いたい - ゆず)

"声も　温もりも　優しい　微笑みも
ここに　いるから
逢いたい"

Translation

"Your voice, your warmth, your gentle smile
They are all still in my heart
I want to see you"

For detailed lyrics and translation, please visit: http://www.jpopasia.com/lyrics/22149/yuzu/aitai.html

Gossip.

2009-06-13T18:19:24Z

Gossip. What is it?

“It’s a social skill, not a character flaw,” says Frank McAndrew a professor of psychology at Knox College in Galesburg, Ill. “It’s only when you don’t do it well that you get into trouble.”

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19748142/

Finally a statement that supports gossiping :D

:(

2009-05-29T08:31:08Z

Oh yes mickey.
I missed you too.
Although I know that you're probably a lady underneath and one that's much shorter than me. >.<

And I never got to finish my post about my japan trip.

Missing the good times already..oh well...@.@

Why oh why...

2009-05-15T19:09:33Z

(ANTM CYCLE12 SPOILERS AHEAD!!!!)

WHY!!!

I was totally rooting for Allison to win. :(
She's quirky in a nice way and have such big eyes!!!

But ARGH!
She should have totally won.
She take good pictures.
She improve along the way.
:(

Just look at her photos!!!:

Picture credits to: ANTM official website.
Further edited by: me.

I thought Teyona was fine until she did the "Don't touch" thing.
It's just so selfish.
She shouldn't have won.
Just makes me think that a top model should not behave like this.

London can give her jeans away and yet Teyona don't even let anyone touch the clothes she won.

Selfish!!! >.<

Awww :(
Why is it that the models I like never get to win ANTM. (except for Caridee)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KOYAMA!

2009-04-30T15:25:15Z

As usual~~~
XDXD

an update because of a NEWS member birthday.

HAPPY 25TH BIRTHDAY KOYAMA!!!
please stop getting on top/bottom of tegoshi during concerts. =X ~~He's mine.~~

geez..i actually like this banner so much more than the one i did for pi's bday >.<

Anyways!!!
Since I'm too lazy to make another new "happy labour day" banner....
I'll just use the one i made last year...=X

Wishing everyone a happy labour day!!!

(*note to self: I really have to start blogging more constantly.. =.=)

Why.

2009-04-16T17:08:52Z

Because my mum cannot handle stress effectively.
Because my mum likes to let her stress out on us.
Because my mum has too many things to do.

That is why we get scolded when she can't handle her stress.
That is why we can only accept the criticisms she made on us even if it made us feel useless.
That is why her workload should be lessen. Especially religious work.

Because her life probably revolves around herself more than us.
Or perhaps that is how it seems to be anyway.

Maybe she think she understands us very well.
But no. Hell no.

(How's my revision going?)
She don't know any shit.
She don't understand how tired I'm feeling.
She don't understand how stressed I'm feeling.

(Am I still feeling unwell?)
She don't know any shit as well.
She don't understand how it's been for me and my sis.
She don't understand that we're feeling worried cause of the bites.

(When's my birthday?)
She knows?
12 November MY FOOT!
She don't even remember when I'm freaking born.

What's my favourite food?
Who's my favourite singer?
What's my aim in life?
What's my hobby?
What troubles have I been facing?

She probably knows nothing.

Ironic huh?
My mum is a teacher.
A teacher who understands all of her students.
A teacher who her students admires.
A teacher who everyone sees as friendly and nice.

Thanks mom.
Thanks for making me feel useless.
Thanks for making me breakdown 2 times in a week.
Thanks for making me wish that I can go crazy.
Thanks for providing me all my needs.
...
...
All but one.

My emotional needs.

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Thank goodness I have a sister.
Thanks for calming me down.
Thanks for being here with me.
Thanks for standing up for me.
Thanks for being my company. (:

The best sister a girl could ever have.

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NOTE:

If any DYB teachers or fellow temple mates sees this.
Please please please lighten her workload by like 1000000000000000000000000 x a million times. She can't handle the stress even if she says she can.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PI!

2009-04-08T15:52:23Z

This birthday banner looks kinda crappy...T___T
but anyway...

HAPPY 24TH BIRTHDAY YAMAPI!!! :D

Anyways, my 1st sem in UB is ending soon...
time just toally flies by...
Hope I can score well for my finals~

Can't wait for my holidays! It will be jdramas, one piece, more jdramas and more one piece!

GAH! About 10 more minutes to "fastest finger exercise".
*stretches*

We can do it?

2009-03-25T12:06:08Z

Things haven't been going well.

1st: THAT incident...I don't even want to talk about it...
2nd: Precious BIGXUANNIE HDD died on me...
3rd: 10%...my 10%...

I really don't want to be this depressed. But this is really going to affect my grades....I know we can do it.

The presentation is going to be good. It is going to be different. It is going to be entertaining.
But without even seeing anything at all...we lost 10%. About a grade.

I know the rest of them feels sad too. I am not an exception.
I guess we really have to rock the house this time.

Let's do it.
Protege rules.

Grabbed from val

2009-02-25T16:44:38Z

Grabbed from val!

Whadya think? :D
Kinda true eh~

NARI CHOCO ROLL

2009-02-16T13:35:58Z

Time for me to update my normal blog instead of my comms blog...*wipes sweat*
This is really random so..LOL XD

This is LONDON CHOCO ROLL.

BUT!!!

Have you ever heard of NARI CHOCO ROLL? XD

I'm going to advertise this a bit just because it looks so delicious and nari came up with the proposal for this kind of swiss roll....YUM YUM!

Still don't look too appetizing for you???
Wait till you see this picture.....

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*DROOLS LIKE CRAZY!*
IT LOOKS SO FREAKING DELICIOUS THAT I WISH I COULD TASTE IT RIGHT NOW!

For more info on this swiss roll, click here

WTF?!?

2009-02-01T16:17:17Z

Just something very random I found on val's LJ and I'm really amused by the results right now...

(C)チミの恋愛傾向 (C)フリーゲームふりーむ (C)オンラインゲームまとめ

LOL！ I LOL-ED ON THAT!!! XDXDXD

(P.S: does anyone know the meaning of the word on the last card?)

Last day of 2008.

2008-12-31T07:45:47Z

Last day of 2008 already!!! A lot of things happened this year too but overall, it ain't that bad.

Now to review what my resolution for 2008 was and if i did accomplish it.

~~1. Love myself more.~~

I think i did it! I'm getting more and more positive. I don't know why too!!! It's just like some kind of positive energy just pulled me in. All I can say that having a aim really helps. 8D

~~2. Be brave.~~

I did breakthrough on that too! :D
I hope I can further improve next year too.

~~3. Save up~~

Actually my aim was to save up to go to Japan so it sort of came true cuz i DID went to Japan this year....8D

~~4. Get my driving license~~

DONE! 8D

~~5. Control my temper~~

I'm still not very good at it but I'm slowly improving. I must say the DYB camp handbook totally made me lose my cool.

Now for what I've accomplished this year XDXD:

- Got contact lense
- Got driving license
- Went to Japan.
- Turned more positive.
- Success in DYB Camp.
- Bonded more with DYB peeps.
- Turned 21. :(

Basically something like this?
Now for my resolution this year...

1. Study Hard

This is a definitely must have. Since I'm starting school soon, I really must start working hard! >.<. It's been quite some time since I really studied so I might not be used to it. But nevertheless! I shall try my best! For the sake of my dreams!

2. Start learning Japanese

It's time I start learning Japanese for real. If I want my dream to come true I better start doing something too. Sure I can recognize Hiragana, Katakana and a few simple japanese words. But it's time for me to start to learn how to use them and how to actually speak complete sentences. I want to get pass JLPT! 8D

3. Keep in contact with old friends

I don't want friends to just come and go in my life. I want them to stay in my life for good. It's always sad that people always drift apart when they start to go separate ways. I don't like that feeling of not having a true friend. Not saying that I don't have any...but it's just kinda sad for me to see friends drift apart.

4. Go to Japan

This is going to be really difficult with recession and stuff but I think I should write this down anyway. Because I realise that once I made a resolution I will try my best to fulfil it. I guess this means I really need to save like crazy again to go there. I was hoping to go for one of NEWS concert but oh well...we'll see how it goes....I don't wanna fangirl alone during their concert too...>.<

5. Catch my first ever concert

If it's possible. >.>
Misia came to Singapore this year and that is like the biggest (I rather call it only) Jpop event of the year. Hopefully this can open doors to the rest of the Jpop artiste in the upcoming year. There's rumours of Arashi coming to Singapore or Malaysia next year and I think I will probably go to their concert if they ever come!

If they ever go to Malaysia, let's gather all the Arashi fangirls and plan a trip!!!

6. DYB Zoo Trip

We keep procrastinating and procrastinating. So it's time for some action.
ZOO TRIP EVERYONEEE!!!!

That's basically my resolution for the year.
Actually I think I've changed quite a bit over this year.
And weirdly, I have to say Tegoshi kinda inspired me.

If a boy can have the determination to change from THIS:

TO THIS:

I believe I can too!
Not just on the outside but my personality too.
More good less bad. But still maintain the unique-ness of my personality so that people know who I am. 8D

In short....~~NEWS~~ I wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!